Two Weeks; shall be interesting...

So today is the start of an interesting “journey” for me, so to speak.

Yesterday morning I woke up, thinking it would be a normal everyday Sunday, though it already wasn’t because my dad was working, therefore we weren’t going to church. I grabbed my cup of coffee like I do every morning, sat down on the couch, and began to watch the morning news with my mom, like I do almost every day, completely normal.

Though, this was not going to be a normal day. After about an hour of watching the news, I got up, to I think get my breakfast, though I’m not totally sure because I never ended up doing it. My mom came out of the dining room, which is where we keep all of our school stuff (my little sister and I are home schooled if you didn’t know), clutching my “planner” in her hand, and I knew I was in trouble.

The night before I went out to dinner with my best friend and her parents, but before I had left, my mom has asked me if all my “homework” was done, immediately I answered yes (because indeed I thought it was). So I went off with my friend and her family, and had a grand ol’ time, while my mom, at home, found that I had not, as I said that I had, finished all my school work.

If you know me, you know how far behind I am in school right now because; I started at a school this year, and then decided to return home, then had to repeat the whole first term anyway, and my books came about a month late. So yeah, I’m really REALLY far behind. And as I have written before, school is a big issue for me; I despise it, though I have never figured out why, because I do love to learn. My brain is a complicated subject matter, just ask my boyfriend.

So there my mother stood with my planner in her hand, and a look on her face I know all too well, though haven’t seen much of lately (thankfully, I have learned my lessons on a lot of things in the past year). She showed me all the work that I was supposed to have had done that I had not done, (it was a lot let me tell you. Can you say whoops?) and told me that I was to have it on her “desk” by Monday morning (today). It was about forty-five, give or take a few, pages of work, and not easy work at that. She continued to go on and tell me that I have no computer or phone privileges for two weeks (if you’re wondering how I am writing this, I do still have to do some school work on the computer), starting Monday.

After I pondered it during the day while I did my extensive amount of work, I found that I was troubled by my actions when she first gave me the verdict. The only thing that came out of my mouth was this “will I be able to use the house phone?”. I had no regards as to why I was really in trouble. Because yes, I was in “trouble” by my parents, but I am in TROUBLE right now, if I don’t get caught up, I might have to stay back a year. That would mean that I would be 19 years old at the start of my senior year. I do NOT want that to happen, I want to get out of here, and be who I am supposed to be. But the only thing that worried me was that I wouldn’t be able to talk to my boyfriend for two weeks. Is there something wrong with that? I wasn’t prioritizing correctly AT ALL. I always tell him that school always comes before me, or anything (except God), but I wasn’t willing to follow my own rule, why?

So I told him of the two week thing, and this is what he said “it’s okay, we’ll get through it, and we’ll be so much stronger in the end”. That’s it. No “man this is retarded!” or “I don’t know what I am going to do without you”. He knew this was what I needed to do; he accepted it, something that apparently, I wasn’t willing to do, for myself.

So I end by saying what I started with. Today is the start of an interesting “journey” for me. I am going to learn that you don’t need to completely fill your life with one person to the point where you can’t see what’s important anymore, and that one person shouldn’t be your whole identity. I will learn that I can survive without modern technology (maybe), and also that I can fend for myself. I don’t need people to “fix” every little single problem in my life, some things I need to do for myself. So this shall be interesting. I probably will write a couple of times during the two weeks, let people know how I am doing, let my thoughts out and see them for myself. So, pray for me that; I use this time wisely, I get things done, focus more on Him and learn to rely on Him instead of people, and learn to appreciate what I have and not take advantage of it.
Wish me luck!